plowing the dark

yup that's what i'm reading...(by richard powers) it's part of one of sarah's courses and she didn't actually finish it.
actually i'm on my lunch break and i had to stop reading cuz tears streaming down your face at work is...well...no i don't really care about that so much...it's the broken (breaking?) heart that has me worried for my performance for the rest of the afternoon...phew...yes i really really do recommend it. the book i mean. with a (melo)dramatic/epic/courageous title like that? of course i'm interested. and it's kind of our story too even though it's not quite...the eighties and nineties as historical events ...made me realize how little of substance i knew/know about tiennamin (sp?) square and the fall of the berlin wall...and those are the events in the book i remember - unlike the escalation/deterioration of lebanon and the bombings... hmm...are there history books about the eighties and nineties yet?
whatever.
tomorrow is officially one month since i started this job. yesterday was one month since my last post... not connected.
the job and the people here are really amazing. i'm very lucky actually. i don't buy into that it'll all work out/it happened for a reason shit but it makes a good story...
could be i'm overly emotional lately (and today) cuz i'm overtired. that time change thing really sucks. and then i played basketball last night - 4 on 4 for 2 hours with no subs... fucking glorious. early on i posted up and got a pass right down the heart of the lane which i turned into a pretty little baby hook shot...boyd and i hooked up on some gorgeous give and go, pass and cut and pass and drain the wide open jumpers...i also totally crashed full speed into a wall...but at least i kept the ball in bounds...ok that's enough for one lunch time.
you're all in my thoughts as i read this book and write this post.